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about

The mystical Black Lion looks out ahead with his eyes fixed and focused out unto the horizon. Upon some point of past shadows and demons with the blood, he paid through countless battles to be at the point where he is now, is still poignantly fresh and trickling down his eye and the front of his mane. Here he still stands victorious. A heart catharticly emoting the treasures and wars of it's own eternalness. This is my spirit animal. This is my story. This is Kidnapped.

This album Kidnapped is both literal and personal for me from a whirlwind of emotions from when I was young and then extrapolating that metaphorically paralleling the effects of an enslaved mentality and the way the world works.

In case any of you may be interested in the breakdown of this universe deemed Kidnapped, this is in way a double album that works to each of it's parts. The halves CD 1 & CD 2 are split in 18 songs a piece, symbolically representing the gift of 'Life' blessed to Us. (חי )

Each part has it's respective bonds as well. Tied to the trauma of Kidnapped thy psyche...
The first half represents physical and emotional trauma. Each half however, is in two parts, broken between 9 songs a piece...9 numerologically is linked to the cross and finality of things. The first nine songs tied to physical and the next nine emotional.

The second half represents psychological and spiritual trauma. Also to note, the first 9 songs of the album and last nine allude to each other more with words while the middle flow with each other more musically, giving the universe of Kidnapped a circle, mathematically π or 'Life'...

The weird and wild chaoticness of a Kidnapped psyche is balanced by breaking these two testaments of lives within themselves for a structured four parts bound by the cross, or nine. Four represents disciple and stability, thus winning back the psyche from what was Kidnapped. Furthermore, for each part of nine there is a song that acts as a bridge on the fifth song of each of the four parts. The fifth being perfectly fit to give flux within each part to give ties and leeway respectively within each.

Lastly, there are three bonus tracks. Of course three representing the trinity. Two books of Life with the trinity hiddenly woven beyond it. Thus, we brave the thirty-nine stripes of Jesus Christ. In essence, One may be Kidnapped, but the soul only grows beyond...Thusly, in a world of where religions are bastardized, the holy spirit within Us cannot be defeated. God was stolen from Us. Kidnapped is the stealing of God back unto His children...

Love has already won; so we will always overcome...

credits

released June 9, 2017

Vocals, Lyrics, Production by Duals

Artist features and production contributions by: Sole, DJ Pain 1, SherVeen Beats, Justin Jay Beats, Aurelia, Dreamer Black, Amy Louisee, Ice Mic 360, Annali Carmel, Johanna Jordan, Ceschi, Soultru, Step Back J, Moody Black, Soulnix, Andrew Gabriel Pragin, KiRyan, Elbious, Prime Suspect, BaysFinest, Edwin Dubali, Kasper The God, Jozif Del Rey, Hiphop Genius, KLAE Beats, DJ Wake & Bake, DJ Cutlass
Additional Mixing and Mastering by Running Wolf and Joey Paradis

Please also enjoy the companion piece “Nonlinear Thoughts” a poem novella that works as an art and audio book.
A poetic adventure navigating life through the fractured depths of hell to find the hidden heavens...
Artwork by Yoko Yamamoto
Accompanying Score by Running Wolf

And lastly so thus firstly, a most emphatic special thanks to these here fellow beings that were among the initial creators and contributors of bringing this art to life. You are among the lovoingkind souls who together helped give birth to this dear humble Black Lion:

My mother Claudette whom bore hell and heaven with n thru me,
My Big Sisters intertwined in armed by heart Marinda Gorman & Raquel Harper,
Annali Carmel a lovingkind soul with an enchanting voice,
Andromeda Townsend we've been thick as thieves since middle school and we are still strong Sister!keep shining Love,
C.F. Cooper whom I was attracted to both body and mind since high school all the best to you One,
Kate Armstrong we jived the moment we met, keep going with your incredible charity Flying Kites is incredible,
Natalie Carmody a great singer-songwriter a most gracious thank you to you fellow artist for your support,
Christian Newkirk all around great man, friend, and a dope EDM producer too!,
Owel Yin you and your twin are angels many many blessings to you,
Grace db thank you so much for your continued support we should totally collaborate sometime,
Cryshauna Mckee always each others emotional support for life luvvvvv ya Sis,
Jonas Tilden you da homie and is there anything you can't do acting music comedy you are a true renaissance man,
Matt St George DU brothers 4 life thank you so much you're a real One Bro,
Gareth A Hopkins Cheers mate and thank you kindly for becoming a new supporter and joining me on this journey of art,
Spencer Hann so uh do you like to trip? Obviously we'll be pondering philosophy together all da way til we're old men but Sara is always right,
Bocar Talla thank you graciously and best wishes to you on your own production perhaps we will link on a collab in the future...,
Char Seawall thank you not only for your support with this project, but your constant moral support and edification on various subjects ^_^,
Chuck Coast thank you dearly brother, from the moment we met in Costa Rica I have looked up to your wise and kind spirit,
Denise Morales we will always be Sailor Senshi team kk I love you,
Shayan Hosseinzadeh we always have the greatest conversations together I miss you dearly thank you,
Schwilly Family Musicians Carlos you are such a kindhearted fellow and a great asses to everyone around you keep living your dream mate and a big big thank you

Blessings to each and every one of you and to you reading who will join Us in the future on this mission to Spread Love...

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Track Name: Wonderlust For The WanderedFound
Okay here we go
Barefeet
We have to learn to cross these waters
Is it in me, are we ready?
No such thing.
Leap


Some of these rocks are sharp I know
We can do it. This toughens our skin, the rocks up ahead are even more jagged
Watch the edge dear
It's okay hunny it was just an owl
We'll be for the better if we take this path.
Let it be darling.
What do you mean it's not fair that they have boots and we don't?
Joy comes from within, not measured by what our neighbors have or what you want
Darling don't you know our path is different
Darling don't you know the trials today make the tomorrow you
Today's challenge is why you're gifted
Quick quick give him a hand
Good job, way to help
It would have been nice if he offered us some of his water, but we'll find water up ahead don't worry.
We must help others not for a return, but because our paths are intertwined
You don't need to fake brave for me Love, just know we will make it
No rush no rush, everything in it's proper time now
Yesterday has nothing to do with Us, you can do it cus you're stronger now
Yes, we've been traveling for quite awhile now
Let us rest our little heads, take care to be prepared for tomorrow now

On this stage there will be no small acts, only small actors
Know your place, so you can reach it
Despite how little you are, you are more
No matter how great you are, you are no big deal
Feel the algae, feel the nature, we are energy
We are our own negativity and we are each other's positivity
We were built to withstand alone
We were built to prosper together
Just because we're not going somewhere doesn't mean we're going nowhere
I know where elsewhere is not the same as anywhere
Although we wander we have not lost our somewhere
Those who judge Us fear to wander and never wonder
We are wondrous for we fear, yet still push forward
Can you learn to love the snake that bit you?
Can you be bitten and learn to not bite others?
It is in our very nature for vengeance
Peaceful souls whom inherited a war so savage
We will not be slaves to history's repeating sentence
Can we nurture our nature for repentance?
Rise to a cure miraculous or divide ourselves by average
Struggle for hope or cling to the DNA we're tied to
Untie these chains, we choose to be born anew
A new born back to which we came
Baby we're born free born free born free
Choose your life, before someone does it for you

No matter our distance I will always see you
No matter our distance I will always touch you
No matter our distance I will always love you
Wander to wonder to wander to a fatigued dying question of wonder
That by the children's wishes does in fact not die and wanders on to a land that knows no end to wonder

No matter our distance I will always see you
No matter our distance I will always touch you
No matter our distance I will always love you
No matter our...
Track Name: Some Wounds Heal, But The Soul Can Burn Timelessly
Some wounds heal, but the soul can burn timelessly

Salutations, thou art harrowing human tornado twirling
Despite destroying everything that comes 'cross my path
I swear to heck I love you
Faire by neck this hectic witchcraft

I ain't nothin but a Mew in a bubble
Pink n petite, just tryna span this universe in time to ask “are you my mother?”
Well dueces to the mothership
I guess we're stranded on this Earth til Us children learn to get a grip

“Reach for the sky bullseye”
As these alien tongues lick your luscious lips
Oh all the blessed poignantly painful truths I've been allowed to utter only
for fractured pathetic semblance that it's all so deathly funny

I'm not who I am, I'm whoever I tell society to think I be
Ask Caitlyn Jenner
Runner thy luck empty, cut from the same claw as cats smashed into mirrors
Bleeding identical reflection stainlessly n toothless
Oh you thought I had time to waste thinkin bout you
Sorry, you must've missed this
Smooth Criminal wit Image clear n truthless
Best respect, my gangsta is ruthless
Good God bloodlet the soul
Or keep pretendin your mistakes make you whole
Can't really hinder another's growth
We trees reach for the sun 'til our branches touch us both

Go dope, what's that smoke, I stayed clear when your life went hazy
Try to blaze me, that's when I hit em with the okie doke
Well hokie poke me friend, watch the love disappear like a facebook trend
Mere blend, dear offend that little box you try to shape the world in
In peers we trust, down to our conscious end
So you can follow the required rigamarole or feel pleased that we are everything and everything in between
I've paid dues and past dues for the dreams I've seen
So excuse me if I don't seem impressed by the fancy golden dress or you showing your 12 year old ass out the side of your daddy's diaper
And you play with knives too? Yeah, cute
Hey I get it, I'm an entrepreneur not a babysitter boo
But your weak clings to depression are hardly taboo
The lie is beautiful, let's gather dreams into idolatry
But if you really want to see hell I've got the key
So take your stupid torn up wings off n come follow me
Track Name: First Love
You know the type, first love was music, sound
Used to run around the house yellin “I'm Black and I'm Proud”
Astound track by statuesque and profound
Visually speaking whats beyond stars abound
Whether Atheist or Theist the message is love
Power of hope n peace by the wings of thy dove
Never forget whats inherently true
Your mission was blessed solely to you
Competing with image for others is quick way turn morals into enemies
Create your fate, cus inner-self knows who you're meant to be
Step fucked me up 'til I felt so ugly
Crying mama, don't love him love me
Grow, Build, Love, open up the third eye
Flow, Wield, Trust, complete consciousness is nigh
Such despair blinds eye to whats inside
Buried thoughtful heart, why does God hide
Prayer resides where on Earth the body is the temple
Empty, lens full, of course leads to sinful
When Eyes blind, blind shutter, shut shutters to eyes
Eye flutters butterflies of wonder
Wonderfully miraculous soundscapes of thy mind
Describe Art as a universe ultimately refined
Idiosyncratic cus they can’t comprehend the mentality
They call it abstract, I say I’m reaching to touch God’s reality

Music was, my first Love
Music Is. my only Love
The soul bleeds when, heart can not trust
Though we push on, because we must

Music was my first Love
Music Is my only Love
The soul bleeds when, heart can not trust
Though we push on, because we must

Describe Art as a universe ultimately refined
Not confined to a literal time
Sure, the world is only the world in the perspective of our minds
But the mind is infinite, soul undefinable
Length, Width, Height
Love, Space, Time
Synesthesia on continuum visually projected clearly
Adamantly admiringly art as limitless
Before our eyes, our hearts shine
Punch fist, frown clenched, screams quenched
Love & War, Love & War, Love & War, Love & War
Curse hissed, smiles poisoned, notes lynched
Love & War, Love & War, Love & War
Sponge-soaked memories of blood ablazed
Ways of evil I'm denying, metaphors larger than Moby Dick
~~Romanticism of denied DNA, saying we don't carry our parents' sick
We carry Love that lasts forever
And even though it didn't, we do
“When no one is around, Love will always love you”
So stay steady penned pennymen savin pennies for pens, what you think
You know the type, they bleed blood, I bleed ink
Giving all the all of me, but these songs are my selfish lush
Nothing left of me but music, this mirror holds my devilishness

Music was my first Love
Music Is my only Love
The soul bleeds when, heart can not trust
Though we push on, because we must

Music was my first Love
Music Is my only Love
The soul bleeds when, heart can not trust
Though we push on, because we must

Immanuel, Immanuel
Oh sing through me
Oh Please sing through me

Immanuel, Immanuel ...
Track Name: Who Needs Roads When God Gave You Wings?
my mama raised me to follow Christ, but my kidnappers dressed me in prada
i gave the world so much love, and it gave me nada
tried to play it straight get good grades n go to college, but was treated like nah fuckin peasant we aint hirin
wouldn't give me chance when i was starvin, n then they wonder why now im firin
at time had not one crime n for no reason cops on my back harrassin
now im pushin back cus right o wrong dont matta they dont stop testin
thing is only plugged in after i was outta options
but breakin Big's commandments, dippin in supply so stressin
but if you aint had to steal to eat you can't say shit how im livin
you've got the same old ideas meanderin thru the road you were paved in
us latchkey kids aint have one, but the ones we're creatin baby
talkin bout how we beneath you, but your mind's on us strangely
stay hatin on me, that bitterness will eat you alive baby
your jealousy only lights our shine, your mind stuck in hive baby
wonder why the trap blazin, cus “from the dust we rise” baby
in this life i've seen some incredible unbelievable things crazy
n you aint gotta love me, just know that i'm real
only livin for heaven, i do how i feel
I'm lovin the now n lookin forward to the future, wouldn't take nuffin back even a lil bit
bumpin Raz Simone, a real nigga neva quit, yeah that's some real nigga shit
always believe in self to manifest destiny, because believing this world is a cruel fate
but rather than examine what it takes to make a young thoroughbread nigga great
you'd just judge from a safe distance, yeah stay the fuck back
'Minority Reportin' so since guilty before innocent when black
in these streets we trappin back, aint sayin its right but im dumpin back
Young black n dont give a fuck on the attack
cus push anyone far enough they gon turn into a sav'
Make a way make a way make a way, we had none
Make a way make a way make a way, we had none
And I'm the only one strong nuff to have survived my story
that's how i know the path I've made is One of glory
Track Name: DMX
*Between Dogs*
Track Name: Fire Interlude
(glasscry)

*Teehee, well really I don't understand why they are all afraid of me. Honestly I'm the nicest person you can ever meet. Just don't mistake my kindness for weakness. I'm really fair you know, if you are good to me, ya know if you speak and act in goodness to my body and name I will shower you with love tenfold. Just don't muthafuckin cross me is all.

Yeah, yeah actually I'm exactly like a fire.
If you and fire are in union, if you're good to me I'll radiate brilliance, I'll give you warmth, I'll be your light and everything you need, sight in the darkness and heat for comfort and a place to cook your meals, a home amidst the wild.
However, if you speak against the fire, that is wind that fans my flames. I will fucking burn you. How dare you think you will be spared from the all-consuming plasma that is I.
Your frozen soul you thought to be impenetrable will experience first-hand why hell is hot.


...And then the Cartel driver leaned over to me and as he pointed to the trinket hanging on his rear view he asked me "if I ever prayed to Santa Muerte?"...
Track Name: A Heart On Fire Inside Of Ice ft Sole
What's a glacier to the sun?
What's a camera to a gun?
What's a tree to a pen?
What's a human to a screen?
All my life I've seen change
The deeper it gets, the more grim it seems
Time is not your ally, it's out to crush you
Nobody cares but those who benefit
Kill the liberal in your head, n then end that capitalist
Hidin in your heart, turnin us to dollar signs
Sizin us up, but we are bigger than life
Times are trife on the boulevard
Friends carried away in cuffs
Or was it college debt, No difference
Because mine is owned by fingered foods n sips at sea
But what good are your politics if you ain't got no empathy?
They drop jewels, we drop truce
To beat back collapsing arctic shelfs
They kill planets, and you feel sorry for yourself
That's a luxury, soon there will be few of those
And so it goes, or shall I say, off we went into the falling sky...
With little more than the clothes on our back
Before them, beyond naked our souls remain on ice
And nothing will be saved but the H2O as it escapes
And that's life...


Frankly caring kills hardened hearts
blankly staring at these ardent bars
Til all passion leaves me drained and scarred
still stuck in a frozen future framed from our start
May your child eyes re-emerge and your heart bloom
At fragile grace reaching greatness 'fore our own devices doom
Zoom past perspectives of a stolen history chained
Even through the eyes of the butcher, can't mask our pain
runnin man while burning, its nuffin to a beast like Caine
Glares into Able's eyes, as coldly leaves brother slain
now im outta hell 'n off the chains, the pain is insane, but I'm only a little deranged
its strange, i've felt every feeling humanly possible except for fear
I'm the brisky sort, whom Death is always near
Please, come hither dear
And touch my frozen heart, so it may be enflamed in tears
Sheer fire to an engulfed dead world, where consumption replaced human cheer
Digital machinery replaced empathy, smiles replaced by hardened steel
Laughter became a defense-mechanism for apathy, and everyone forgot how to feel...
Track Name: No More Struggle ft Dreamer Black
I been hustlin n strugglin
Tryna make my paper stack
Sick n tired of being poor
Can't afford to take a nap
Got stains n holes on my t shirt
My ankles swole n my feet hurt
I wanna smoke, but I'm so broke
It's not a joke, I need work

I woke up to a hangover
We got drunk last night, you shoulda came over
All that's left is this cold chicken n old pizza
Flat back, washed beer, roaches, n no reefer
Searching fo' ciggarette butts
Stained, the stale is hell, I ain't givin a fuck
What ya see, is what ya get
Not much to work with wit'
Walkin' 'round bearfoot, musty n shirtless
Just anotha day in the life of a user
A drug n alcohol abuser
You'll find me, wit' my eyes dilated like popcorn
Runnin' from da cops, or getting caught wit' a hot horn
Ain't no hope fo' us po' folks
All I wanna do is smoke dope, but I'm so broke
I feel worthless, like I have no purpose
But God said we all got flaws, not one of us perfect...

No Struggle; Rise Up
No Struggle; Rise Up
No Struggle; Rise Up

I been hustlin n strugglin
Tryna make my paper stack
Sick n tired of being poor
Can't afford to take a nap
Got stains n holes on my t shirt
My ankles swole n my feet hurt
I wanna smoke, but I'm so broke
It's not a joke, I need work

...It's not that there is such thing as karma, it's that every struggle is linked...And 'His' sorrow is always touching you; especially if you don't see it.
Just tryna release my soul to this dying world
Before these drugs leave my soul inked
Permanent mark of extinct
So bored we're taking drugs that make us more boring
And I swear to black magic I'm going to have to teleport to that alternate dimension to go and behead the devil for myself if they take one more of the most beautiful souls this world has ever known to something as lethargic as drug overdose again
Honestly, it's embarrassing how many songs I've had to hear to save my life again...and again and again and again...
Too many failed suicides to believe there's a rope's end
An illusion masquerading as a dream that's really a cage
A marketed stream of collateral damage damage damage
Let's see how many children will drown in the tidal wave
Innocently waiting for a day to be saved
Hit head on a rock
Bottomed out, but concussion said to keep diggin
Well keep swimmin
A dead limb told to keep reachin
As if rappin was my sole mission
Cut tongue off n kept spittin
Life's easy, no struggle...
Track Name: Edward Snowden
They say everything happens for a reason
but I dont wanna see another hospital pukin out my brains tryna figure out what that reason is
or worse like the time my heart stopped for a bit n woke up out a coma
yeah homie, you know what it is
no more little deaths, no more comas tho haha
Everyday is a personal war for everyone and dying all the time is getting exhausting yo
Let's go

Edward Snowden, is an American Hero

I'm a perfect pretty idiot

i'm a perfect idiot, so addicted with chaotic bliss
With Edward Snowden type courage,
patriotic enough to commit treason

Edward Snowden!

Hurricane Katrina, Never forget
Sudan Genocide, Never forget
Nato Airstrikes in Lybia, Never forget

What the fuck is a 9 11?
What's the difference between a tax payment and a pledge for murder?
And we all know murder is legal if you're a crooked ass cop anyway
Yo Where's the match?
Burn it down!

Edward Snowden x3 Edward Snowden x2 (low)
Track Name: Even Children Eat Their Young
Dead dead child, ring 'round this rose
They're not kings, so why do thee bow
Is this life, that you have chose?
Or just the one, that you allowed?

In this place, where thoughts are froze
Yet still somehow, race all around
Held right up, to feed thee crows
Can only fly, as far as chains are bound

A lone castaway, where dreams distill past the mist
to drift to an unknown nothingness
And we instead adopt a manuscript on what freedom is
And work your life away until nothing left

Oh my God, I swear we're trying
Then why is it, compassion's dying
For fellow mankind, I'll stop crying
But by then, we'll all be dead

Party, sex, money, drugs
Party, sex, money, drugs
Party, sex, money, drugs
Party, sex, money, drugs

Party, sex, money, drugs
Party, sex, money, drugs
Party, sex, money, drugs
Party, sex, money, drugs

Damn Mother Earth's calamities are still there
Ain't nay not one, gonna pretend to care
Rather than a brother or sister prosper n be rising
We tear each other down so at least we're all falling
Who created these illusions of Us vs Them
Lying that it's not Us, it's Them vs Them

The Earth is flat dear, it's got one side
And we're all on it, hahaha

Can't tell that joke anymore, cus in world with no more truth
People take, it literally
We're just killing, to survive shackles ruthless
Lest' we're willing, to obey what say natural be

I see a future, where there's no each other
Yet presently, each other we're killing
Suture human family, while one another we're pulling
Mother says in due time dear, but we won't stop drilling
Oh my God, I swear we're trying
Then why is it, compassion's dying
For fellow humankind, we'll stop preying (praying)
But by then, we'll all be dead

They say united we stand, divided we fall
And there shall be no, conquering us all
I'd say we should all, come together
But now even children eat their young
Track Name: Oh Rise, Sweet Child ft Amy Louisee
"Summer Loving" "Oh (rise) Sweet Child"
yeah yeah fuck you
I still got too much teen angst to make a hit
I do what I wanna do, radios for old people
sarcasm is for subtlety and subversion
take your passive agressive ass elsewhere
I on't need to dumb it down, you need to listen up
Make like a hippy and emanate energy at a higher frequency


half dmx, half hello kitty
half raw, half cutesy
and i keep it so real and i keep it so gritty
and im also so twee, and im also so silly
the wise tend to feel me
but the dumb wanna kill me
still swiftly swerve slick their stupid stones so shrewdly
See I can teach to tame the snake very feasibly
I war while wild to make the wolves wear weepy
and can stil fry fishies just shy b4 gettin sleepy with the sheepys
well in space noone can hear any of my witty
so i vibe with the outsiders at an unknown frequency
Begrudginly Lead cus my spirit animal is Lion n pride is heavy
So if you a coward get the fuck away from me (yo you heard me; back the fuck up you don't know me)

Oh Rise, Sweet Child

Yo one mo' term for scwarzaneger, it'd be better than the cops tryna terminigger
so if you see da po', bust out your phone n warn a nigga
see why i keep my dark rhymes happy like a trigga
I'm the last black cowboooyyyy, ain't noone quicka
Got bars like the prison industrial, too complex
so does it perplex, when words stretch, n heads scratch
these fools is no match, stick hands up, do you catch
what i'm sayin when this sagely shaman be sporatically sprayin
that wicked that wiccan that victor that vicious sad spittin mad mischief
bad milk, bad kitten
nah t'ime buggin
but im a prince so im lovin, still charlie sheen so im winnin
Sometimes you gotta go n love yourself like a Justin Bieber song
"There aint nuffin wrong wit helpin the strong"
So take time to face the mirror and learn to love who you be
Tell em, if it offends ye, how the good lord made me
Then maybe, you need your lil bubble popped
A knock to your jock, a new perspective unfurled
A rock of the boat, a shock to your world
N' What I'm sayin here ain't a novel trailblazer
We all know there's no shortage on a police tazer

Oh Rise, Sweet Child

A Light that no frame can hold, Pain then broken by the seam
Bursting joy inside unfold, Awakening bold daring dream x2

Eye of the beholder, what will you paint from your window pane
And I'm still makin love to Eve's sister in the garden
Yeah, Steve said it was okay
Be You
You were born
Therefore, you are already a miracle
Be miraculous

A Light that no frame can hold, Pain then broken by the seam
Bursting joy inside unfold, Awakening bold daring dream
Track Name: Pray For Us ft Ice Mic 360
So hu huhaha
look at this lame cat aphiah always talkin that'
he never stops preachin bout his bitch ass –

Yo nigga' why don't you kick some off that
uhhh poe- try - fuck you even call this kinda nigga
yo kick that lame ass sucka ass –

Okay check it, yo nigga'd nigattity nigga as I
wreck this shit
smooth like its' many years on grind
since when did dark cloud not yet let a light of truth did shine
so mystified eyes stare as you weak are lined
spot in em in row oops* you ducks is mine ***
gottem right where I want em
Fools thought that they had me played, while I juked they grind
I'm free to live in full spirit, while you enslave your mind
You worried bout measly chains n gold while the future is mine
You crave money - I am wealth, you feign fame - I let within shine
Pay not one dime to time
Let me school you on the infinite
You can die with this world, but none of it will worth an itsy bit
Critical secrets all come to light, ancient words that the mystics get
Fit to unfold the forever, not affected by you syndicates
All fughazais to cover what soul does reflect in
Sendin messages from elsewhere in all directions
There's no stoppin the mission, because all will be revealed in the end




Patiently clinging to hope to survive

watching as our Ones loved loses life

Pray the mission come can soul still strive

For strength to conquer this soulless strife

Us in Love can touch those out of

Pray For Us, Pray For Us

Pray for us and then spread this love. Trying to fit in the world's like OJ's glove. Grinding for the win so I ain't seen a quit. This world's all corrupt mane fuck politics. Colostomy bag all full of shit. Please tell me that this ain't as good as it get. And if so that mean I'm playing Jack Nic. On a Helen Hunt for a chance to get rich. Tell me who fuck'd up and let Trump in this bitch. From his 1st speech they need to impeach. Or Let him take shots of some damn bleach. I swear this shit sucks like yo ass got a leech. Closing down schools now TV shows teach. Without WiFi these kids out of reach. If I die I leave my knowledge in my will. Thou shall not sit still. Ill ..... Just Praying that Jesus grab the wheel. And that's the real like my name Holyfield.



Patiently clinging to hope to survive

watching as our Ones loved loses life

Pray the mission come can soul still strive

For strength to conquer this soulless strife

Us in Love can touch those out of

Pray For Us, Pray For Us
Track Name: Watch Me
Oh my God, he drank the bleach
Hurry we have to get him to the hospital
He's gonna have to have his stomach pumped
Quick call 911

I rose from a tornado, and fell from the bluffs
Now things ain't all good, but they're good enough
Eh well maybe not, but I'm stronger now
And I still survived, so you can watch me now

As a child when I returned home they had to watch me closely
As an adult I rock the stage and people watch me closely
They say life is large, but I art more immensely
My energy is strong, you feel my presence intensely
If you knew my past, would you really know where my head be?
Could you untie these invisible ropes that constantly strangle me?
Can you see the purity inside the poisoned well if you look real closely?
Don't you read the neon sign on the inside of my forehead
Flashing a furious red that reads “get the fuck away from me”

Do you really love Love, or just the parts you understand
A mind is an energy that connects through the hand
Do you really love Love, or just the parts you understand
A mind is an energy that connects through the hand

I rose from a tornado, and fell from the bluffs
Now things ain't all good, but they're good enough
Eh well maybe not, but I'm stronger now
And I still survived, so you can watch me now

The ones that hate me, can't take their eyes of me
Even when you don't see me, I'm still in your memory
So just watch me, watch me, I just do me
You have to watch me, watch me, 'all eyez on me'

Well until kingdom do come
Mystery's river flows
Hell always follows you home
Whereever home goes
Too fucked up to tell straight line from the stumble
Mixed up enough to mix the heaven with the rubble
Find Ms Flawed who's just right for a perfect tumble
Then try to build a pyramid just to watch it all crumble

I rose from a tornado, and fell from the bluffs
Now things ain't all good, but they're good enough
Things are lookin up, plus I'm stronger now
Soul of a survivor, you gotta watch me now

The ones that hate me, can't take their eyes of me
Even when you don't see me, I'm still in your memory
So just watch me, watch me, I just do me
You have to watch me, watch me, 'all eyez on me'
Just watch me, watch me, I just do me
You have to watch me, watch me, 'all eyez on me'
Track Name: Synecdoche, Stockholm
Freedom that opposes anothers is not freedom but oppression

Got damn, can't win for losing, who shorted my deck
can you really not understand my smile when i break your fuckin neck
i was ransomed by real satanists, your ouji boards are childs play to me
how does one not learn to love their captor
masta masta, pet me feed me
i swear i wont bite your hand off, you knocked out all my teeth
Love me love me, aren't I good
Please master, haven't I...

Don't talk about life, talk about death
too busy livin it
They say I'm guarded n have trust issues, I believe I should
You don't really wanna hear about a child stripped away from his mother,
her anxiety imprinted upon his soul
Well this is my revealing, this album is the funeral of past wounds
A siren is all I know to gift me her bless
A celebratory death
Not out of morbidity, but a love of life
Am I allowed to eat yet?

Ugly, stupid and deranged, call me whatever you like with your crooked broken perspective
So long as you know that you can never see me
You say I'm angry, I say passionate
You called me crazy, I'm just a kid post-survivalist
Struggling to strive
I was up, you convinced me best strategy was to take a dive
I was foolish enough to mistake your misery as beauty
You hate what is different, so of course my type is asylum and your type is normalcy
You advocate tolerance over Love

Flying thru the sky as vision swims thru a sea of colours

That building that building it hurts
so you let it out, they call that feeling
I know it's deepwithin
but when it let's out to the surface
can it let out all our suffering
can't cage it in so it's out now
a gift to feel so we are gifting


“The universe is when you believe in everything”
It's all deja vu to a home I can't remember
But why fear the unknown when the unknown is what is faced everyday
Mother may I be allowed to go out n play
And how does one get close, when devoid of personalization?
Can we skip to the future, who wants to deal with life right now
I swear I want to attach, I just don't know how
The always ambivalent AI program
From where these directions transmit I do not know
Am I myself or whoever they think I am?
If you forever run in place how do you ever move on?
I love you, but to grow I must move on
I'm leaving to find myself
I'm leaving to learn how
I'm leaving to find myself
I'm leaving to learn how

I love you I love you, at least when I learn how
I think you lack the imagination to see the truth
Track Name: No More Hurt
Same house...might as well be light years apart...
Complete disconnect...Eerie, is the rhythm of the rain...
I used to eat your pain, but there's no somehow nor direction for any blame
But I tried to runaway so long ago, I would pray
Please, give me momma's burns, don't let momma hurt no more....
I digested fully, its not as if your spousal problems were behind closed doors...
What do you think the child saw? What do you think the child thought?
Take a pill to be removed...intensity...overwhelming....
Do you dear mother still dream the same dreams you dreamed as a child?
Or have forgotten them?...
No more hurt for mother, no more hurt for mother...
Give it to me...

Oh Just let me astral project...
Soul trapped in this world...
I am not from...

One quest, seize the world only to give it to mother...Giving her herself...
Don't hurt anymore...
“No don't hit him, its his birthday!” you scream...
Then you step back as according to plan...
How dare I receive this game when step-father is out of coke
Aggression removed...
Don't worry sure, I'll talk to real daddy on the phone
I won't cry, I'll be strong for you mommy and say everything is alright
Afterall, compared to others 'tis was but a minor brawl
This time only a few new marks to lull (lawl)...
Look at these measly bruises, I paint mine much deeper
I'd steal yours too, just to keep your image clearer
Are these the Child's tears or the Mother's?
No more hurt for mother, no more hurt for mother...
Give it to me...

Oh Just let me astral project...
Soul trapped in this world...
I am not from...

You were the strongest person I ever knew...To lend oneself to such punishment...
Absolute sacrifice of self at the price of Family...
Don't do it Don't do it!
Give it to me!
I pleaded for you to have to fight no longer
But it seems instead you just gave up the fight...
I'm sure somewhere down deep that bite still rests...
Earthquake Haiseth!, please wake my dear mother
Tired and dreary I long for her for what has been replaced by forlorn torn...
Where I once saw her path, I now only see her trail...
Now attaches her innards out to everything...
Falsity of self?... I can not see
A great fog now blockades you and me...
We still speak of pleasantries, still speak of comedies
But nothing real, no substantiality
Gardens to Floods and Poems to Fire...
No more hurt for mother, no more hurt for mother...
Give it to me...
Track Name: Figure It Out
I battle real demons, ordained by your numerolgy
See I'm a star, point me out like your astrology
But by belt of Orion, battle thru n make it look so ease
I chuck e cheese n dab, stealin these rats' cheese
They brag bout how they stay woke
I'm screamin leave me paralyzed please
Thinkin bout the Atmosphere, listenin to a windy breeze
Can't see the 'Sunshine', so “I just wanna show you my disease”
Wonders why so clumsy, as I'm droppin all of life's keys
Can't figure it out, now I'm fallin to my knees
Can't figure it out, now I'm fallin to my knees
Thinkin if there's a God, He sure ain't savin me

Abelias ablaze all away, as wallflowers wither away
Dear dandelions do decay, as left with nil at the last day
Such sweet serendipitous sway
Matter marked merrily may
Rather instead, fraught with fray
And always be war we waged
No matter how hard fought, believe this is staged
Is it all for not?, to fight against while caged
We'll still give it all we got, there's power in our rage
Well here's tongue cat has caught, it squirms body-less n plagued
So now let the flood bust, we're all slaves to our ways
I carry 'a healthy distrust', while searching for brighter days
To rise against we must, to complete cycle n say
“We're through wit the past, but it ain't through wit' Us”
As the Universe expands, we try to figure it out
It's always one step ahead, but we'd rather look back at the dead
Oh please do not fret, we've got a long road ahead
There's a time to sit n scratch our head, and a time to take action instead

Oh please oh please Miss Faithful, put my song up in that tower
These were eyes so reign-ful, that dropped down from that shower
Or was it tired tears, sorry sometimes I confuse the two
See we must shred our fears, to find that light so blue
Open so bright n full, thy endless magnolia flower
Will you stand up to evil?, or will you turn n cower?
It takes these trials to triumph; In true...
Can we see through the glass darkly
At the final hour...
Track Name: Buck 65
People are afraid of me, but act like the love me
Feast your eyes upon my nudity, I am both Beauty & The Beast
Track Name: Dirty Ass Vagabond
the name's Bond...Vagabond...

i dont rep anywhere, if i had to i'd rep nowhere
i'm nomad, my mind is elsewhere
but of course im proud of where I'm from
for I am from stardust
so ashes to ashes, blow me homie
As long as I get to make my points no need to scream n cuss
Duals is no big fuss, a lone star only
Don't look up to me, I'm pretty terrible
What did you expect? I'm a man. sprinkled with miracles of beautiful
From the poignancy of when your heart is fully unconditional
all the way down to the loneliness of your cubicles
They try to pass me off as naiive wishful thinking
But their heart is sinking
And how can a fallen part fill the whole which it sever
My hope stems from seeing the forever

Whether sad breath or happy breath, neither is promised
so I try to cherish this present gift
Knowing each moment is precious, is but a fraction of what it's worth
We all do our dirt to get by, why the poor hustle harder than the rich just to survive
Better choke me in these shallow waters, before I get too deep
I tried to walk a thousand miles, before I even grew feet
I slid down slippery slope of sleepy sin wit sheep o' bo peep
Ignored the steep, caught some heat, but gettin outta dodge is no big feat
wishin on a snowflake, whether woes get weary
or the years got dreary
I know its hard, n if eyes get teary
be one with the rain, life's a cold coltrain
let's same cooke it by twistin the night away
so hop the box train n bring your night into the next day
dont need any stature or trinquets, hell don't really need a place to stay
I always seem to find a way, just need memories of my loved ones, a bindlestick
n as long as i know right from wrong, I'll be okay

I'm the 007 hobo, I'm a dirty ass vagabond


how dare you label us just another squatter,
when your the one with dreams left stagnant and squandered
ares may be too, but at least we still wander
You see us as savage trash, but our eyes have seen yonder
you need a million things to feel pleased and once you have them you need a million more
we're happy with a bridge or tree to sleep under, or even on the sand by the seashore
You say we're lost, but actually our values we keep to the core
And our days may not know your cuddly comfort, but at least they're still filled with mighty wonder
We're the lightning and the thunder,
n under pressure we got our community and a sidewalk slammer
Don't always have enough cash,
but that's nothin that can't be solved wit a lil Buck or Johnny Cash
So here's to honor amongst theives,
we don't fit in your tiny box of what you thought society is supposed to be
but nor do we wanna be, i'm a dirty ass vagabond and there's noone else who i'd rather be

I'm the 007 hobo, I'm a dirty ass vagabond
Track Name: Sailor Moon In A Jessica Rabbit
Un, keep your head up while movin down the stream
The ride is half-chance half-choice yeah ya know what I mean
eyes set on the horizon you're such a lightbeam
Seamless free my lil cute jellybean

Oh guardian angel please take me on the rise
Take me to the vantage point to watch my own demise
I prayed and prayed to you but the answers were all lies
But twas not you, it was just Lucifer in disguise
Now you wondering why the sunshine's burning you in your surprise
I woulda cried but the tears froze inside my eyes
To live your dreams in real life your vision must crystallize

so I'm takin nuffin, givin lovin
spreadin lovingkindness, they say they ran outta fucks to give
to me this makes no sense, Love is a renewable energy source
so I pour my cup to filler up, boop boopity boop betty boop
oh thats the bootyhole oops hoo hoo
not my job to be a saint
just make these words orgasm
can you believe these thoughts were an autoschediasm
With wind I speak
Breathe in, heartbeat
We are whom we eat and chemicals react if left still a corpse breath
Give it all you got til nuffin left
Yah yay Jah Hey, Hip-hippity Hop Hooray!

my hearts made of metal n my brains on fire
I mean my heart is on fire n my mind desires
if one touches the other my circuitry may re-wire
(rrrrirrr rrrrrirrrrr error...Re-route; complete.)
i've got a thing for GI Joe n I've got a thing for Barbie
Then I signed up for war cus my birth control pills made me crazy
takin every drug I can getmy hands on with no stops
runnin naked up n down the block
screamin I don't give a fuck while masturbatin on cops
how many men that look like me do I have to see murdered before I fuckin pop

Un, keep your head up while movin down the stream
The ride is half-chance half-choice yeah ya know what I mean
eyes set on the horizon you're such a lightbeam
Seamless free my lil cute jellybean

Beautiful soldier of Love & Justice
Oh please give The serenity to accept the things we can not change,
The courage to change the things we can,
And the wisdom to know the difference
We can't do it on our own, can't do it on our own
Come One, Come All, together we are strong
Energy bond let's connect as we move along
Song spoke into existence so what was written was sewn
Oh lift me up off 'God's bathroom floor'
when one closes there's always another door
n when there ain't we bustin down like sore (so war)
crossed the valley's river now no need for these oars
they all the same, all the same, what a bore
not Us, source is straight from our core
Bastard kids don't got laws, but we do got lore
From core, from core, from core, from Lord

Un, keep your head up while movin down the stream
The ride is half-chance half-choice yeah ya know what I mean
eyes set on the horizon you're such a lightbeam
Seamless free my lil cute jellybean

Un, keep your head up while movin down the stream
The ride is half-chance half-choice yeah ya know what I mean
eyes set on the horizon you're such a lightbeam
Seamless free my lil cute jellybean

thought I was mr nice guy
Who you told you im nice?
So quick to prove
I juke cuts like I'm the coldest, I'm the craziest, most heartless

As if any of that is a good thing
hehehehehe

kids that had it the roughest die off unless they learn to be the sharpest
you see a naiive pure bliss that's oh so priceless
pretty diamond bright lulls you closer still your highness
close enough to cut your throat n leave you lifeless

I'm a lion. *meow
I mean I'm a Lion
Roar!!!
Calling my 'Dead Rabbit' army, Roger
I mean rabid

Blood streams down wolf's face as she howls as that moon
She's noon past doom, but til last breath she will croon
Die baby die baby, it'll all be over soon
til then cherry blossom, spread your love n bloom...
Track Name: Martyrdom Is So Sacredligious
Pretending I was born this way
Puttin on my child-star performing face
They say product of environnment
But nowadays even the environment is a product
I'm just a commodified form pushing commodities to other commodified forms
In a digital age, where nothing is tangible
Yet everything is still quantifiable
Well riddle me this Batman,
In a world deflating on its own largeness
What is qualitative?
The mind is abstract, yet we reduce are thoughts to fixable
When measuring our neighbors by net worth rather than the worth of their character
Crabs struggle to climb on top one another in a barrel, Aren't cliches admirable
When those built to build together, become one anothers predator
Tapped in a mentality of get mine, when it's only Us that shine


They say this is whats meant to be
How sickening
How drowned in flood, while world droughting
Rome is burning
So viciously
Say I'm(hum) devilishly
I'm only turning into what time be
Does that mean I'm tryna put myself behind me?
I don't know see
I was told to, just build these boats to offer when its flooding

While we're all paddling to heaven in these lil row boats
Merrily everyone swings by throat, screaming swears their not lost
Yet no one can point to home
From which we are coming, to where are we going
No one knows
Thank Nature for gravity, how gracious this river's pull

All for show, more mantra than you can bat an eye at
Stay scared, stay strapped
Watch as yet another child falls through crack
Liken to margin ourselves (by) widening gaps
We all missed it the first time
Life is one big psych
And certainty is a blind mime
But There's a thinline between childish and childlike


They say this is whats meant to be
How sickening
How drowned in flood, while world droughting
Rome is burning
So viciously
Say I'm(hum) devilishly
I'm only turning into what time be
Does that mean I'm tryna put myself behind me?
I don't know see
I was told to, just build these boats to offer when its flooding

While we're all paddling to heaven in these lil row boats
Merrily everyone swings by throat, screaming swears their not lost
Yet no one can point to home
From which we are coming, to where are we going
No one knows
Thank Nature for gravity, how gracious this river's pull

Hustle hard homie, yeah stay grind
Make money n die, so long as you don't thrive, so long as you don't shine, so long as you don't strive
Noone cares about God's image, just that the image is mine
Fools battle with time n speed away on a leaky faucet
I hope the latest pipeline burst of oil warms you in your casket

Sacrilege, sacrilege, - sacred live...please...
Track Name: Baby Shatter
I may be a shattered baby
But I know those broken pieces of me are still out there, somewhere
And it don't matter, if then I'm dead
Cus One day, One day, One day...
I'm gonna be me!

how many mirrors must reflect to infinitely image to this endless shatter
homeless, loveless, across the earth they scatter
our fellow brothers n sisters who came out of a situation (everyone) called hopeless
know that broken homes aint where your worth is
not even enough rope to hang self on
so no choice, but to carry on
this earth was not your origin, child you are more
tell them it'll be okay, no cause for alarming
mommy why wont this freezing stop, is this that feeling called hungry?

Can't see mirror, shattered baby
Can't see mirror, shattered baby

child's a diamond in the rough, but this overwhelming feeling cuts thru that
dear lord, how many children will fall thru these cracks
How can one be human when nothing reflects in this mirror
when heaven's far n forgotten you'll run to anything nearer
From birth baby is told you don't matter
who would touch such ugly, you don't matter
never knew a feeling that had a worth to remember
Now everly does baby shatter, baby shatter
baby shatter, came from dark matter, baby shatter, baby shatter
broken babies scatter

2-dimensional being, no you are flatter
crushed by gravity, no burden's greater
would kill self, but you are sadder
no pieces fit, what does it matter

Dead dead child, is this feeling?...
Dead dead child, is this feeling of dying?
Dead dead child, is this feeling called dying?
I don't know...

child's a diamond in the rough, but this overwhelming feeling cuts thru that
dear lord, how many children will fall thru these cracks
How can one be human when nothing reflects in this mirror
when heaven's far n forgotten you'll run to anything nearer
From birth baby is told you don't matter
who would touch such ugly, you don't matter
never knew a feeling that had a worth to remember
Now everly does baby shatter, baby shatter
baby shatter, came from dark matter, baby shatter, baby shatter
broken babies scatter

puke it puke it, can't take no more but youre still heaving
dying dying, too much pain to ever end your dying
puke it puke it, dont quit like youre dopesick
dying dying, lick the taste of an empty heart emptying
they've never had to look their kid in the eye whos starving
tell them baby it'll be okay
dad where are you, i swear i'm trying

Baby shatter...(repeat) (screaming)
Baby shatter, baby shatter, baby shatter, baby shatter (in sadness)
Broken babies please piece back together...
Track Name: No, I'm Poppy (Happy-Go-Lucky)
Hi, I'm Poppy!
Track Name: Bent Glass ft Johanna Jordan
Ever since I was a child, these ppl treated me like an angel
How dare you place me on a pedestal! Watch me fly the fuck off...
I never said I was perfect; but at the same time my flaws don't make me any less worth it
And I know I need to defeat this 'self-defeating' that's eating me...
But I'll never let another decide who I be...
It ain't playin the victim, when that's the reality
Please tell me a pretty lie, cus we know the truth is ugly...
But just cus life's cold don't mean it can freeze me
Watch my prayers manifest out Destiny, Miraculously...
And I'm sick of how society stares at my shatter,
fake reflect my story so they can pretend to try to piece me
I may be bent glass, but nah baby I never break...
'N you have no right to demean me
I'm simply me – human being...but
Fuck it, I'm however you appear me to be...

Nothing to prove
Nothing to lose
No one to blame
No time for shame

Nothing to prove
Nothing to lose
No one to blame
No time for shame

Might as well bet on me...

All I am is bent glass, but I cant break
All I am is bent glass, but I cant break
All you see is bent glass, but you cannot break
Sight is not defined by the reflection we make
All I am is bent glass, but I cant break
All I am is bent glass, but I cant break
All you see is bent glass, but you cannot break
Said all we are be bent glass, but we will not break (nah)
Yes all we be is bent glass, but we can never break baby
And when that light doth reflect in, by what we make
Our glass bends down n'...

Until the Sun comes up
But I always stay on top
Too tired, n wastin my time
I aint wastin my time

Might as well bet on me yeeaaahhhh...
Track Name: Oh, Silence Won't You Stay
another night alone, so far away,
oh silence wont you stay, with me
another night alone, so far away,
oh silence wont you stay, with me
i feel it in my bone, so don't say
things are better this way, maybe
thank goodness we'll never know...

nostalgia's nothing more than a foolish lie
even more so when past is crime
i'll take my sorrow straight, thank you
your sugary kindness is a cruelty too great

another night alone, so far away,
oh silence wont you stay, with me
oh ,silence won't you stay...
Track Name: The Greatest Wealth
Oh little child how you suffer in the body of a man.
Why let self continue to suffer that's not part of the almighty plan
For almighty is power, which we all possess.
Let go of your sorrow, learn to caress .
Caress the broken spirit of the wounded soul.
The desire to once again feel whole.
lighten yourself with the gift of knowing.
That your inner self is forever growing .
That all you once held in is passed.
Now your free to be who you want at last .
The child still dwells in the body of a man.
Release the key of the prisoner ,only you can.
Unburden the thought of all youre not.
The self loathing that you once were taught.
Embrace the image of the man whom you are.
The man and child have travelled so far.
The man now the father unto himself.
Has learned that love is the greatest wealth .♡♡♡♡

In silence she awakens.
In silence ,she weeps .
Her mind is in disarray,
her heart is in Dismay .
She lost all self control,
that was never her goal.
But something took over her beautiful soul .
She suffers more pain than anyone knows.
Yet all of the time her spirit grows.
She is my loving loyal friend,
and always will be .
For I am in her and she is in me.
Compassion for self and others
That's what sets us free....♡♡♡♡

Each tide of time
takes us with each wave
We try to ride the sines
Hoping for a day we'll be saved
Life pulls us away
to n fro we sway
Our chances ruled by choice
Our choices ruled by chance
May our mind guide our voice
May our heart guide our dance
The man says I have to leave now
Then her tears begin to fall down
He asks, “dear why do you cry now?
Our bond a light so blue
Our Oneness forever true
And I'll always come back to you....♡♡♡♡
Track Name: Cat Power
Oh what a fuss when the king rides by
Oh what a fuss when the king rides
Straight through my heart
Straight through my life

'N He loves more than you'll ever know.
If I kissed and touched your hand
A million things I will never understand
Oh what a fuss when the king trades in
Oh what a fuss when the king trades


I am so, angry
I am so, at ease
I feel just like
Some great big disease


When no one is around Love will always love you...
Track Name: dust to Dust...(acapella)
Dust, Dust, dust
And nothing but
Must I strut this painful pretension of happiness
Only to be falling with a silent thud like tired petals
And trying brings anger and sadness to everyone
So I hold on to as many false security blankets as I can until this world fades away into boringness
But I've got an overstimulated mind that won't sleep, shutdown, or retreat
So boring only drowns into the comfort of fantasizing 6 million ways to die
But death won't suffice to fill the numbness of my nothingness
As this splits the rotting already rotted apple where my heart should be
Where a constantly consuming abyss eats away at where my inner light should be
I still struggle to stand but rather am depressingly drained far deeper than where rock bottom should be
In this untraveled negative space I finally have the aloneness my 6 million nothingnesses craves for
You can name this feeling whatever you want, but don't call me dead
I'm way sadder than that
Label me whatever mental illness stigma suits your fancy, but I ain't depressed
I'm way deader than that
And I wish to save the children, but apparently God needs the numbers for comparisons
So I won't be happy until the future has crumbled unto that very first ancient breath
Let my sarcasm be a blade caught somewhere between the truth you don't want to hear and the illusions you've rationalized to call life happy
I'm a killjoy kitty on a rampage
Don't shoot the anti-everything messenger, just let that unshaking feeling that I'm right chastise and haunt you
Anywhere or time is as good as any to die if I'll wind up in the same place
But behest to the king, I strain-fully struggle for one small meager step forward
While simultaneously being strangled by a thousand invisible ropes in all directions
“This is called progress”
Says my far away face trillions of light-years away in quite some cold ago
From hither, comes my tragic tears I can't cry anymore
Figures the innumerable figure of human identity
A google uncountable fractured fragments that used to share some poor pitiful shattered semblance of my soul's reflection
reflecting the inner heart of a heartless soulless being
And I couldn't put these worthless pieces of self back together even if I wanted to
So I lay motionless, entirely exposed in an underwater whirlpool where the devil chants to me in endless circles
A paralyzed paramecium
A couple cells short of a single-celled prokaryote
Dust, Dust, dust
Or whatevers left of anything less...
Track Name: Pyre
I am the coldest bone
I could love if I had a soul
I let you turn my heart to stone
Now just let me die alone

A fraction with an endless toll
How does an irrational learn to be whole
Guess each number just plays it's role
All searching to be 'paid in full'
Where pleasure grows so dull
And all humans are fool
And lies are weaved in wool
From elder to baby's drool

Called on Black Angel to taste her breath
A very intense face to face
Stared deep into eyes with no depth
She's a CSI cold case
delve deeper into her darkness
brings to false light of brightness
closer still to my highness
Love leave me in sleep paralysis...

I am the coldest bone
I could love if I had a soul
I let you turn my heart to stone
Now just let me die alone

And leave anything that does not inspire, to be consumed by the fire
is human anything more than pyre?...

If you don't stand for something
You will fall for anything
And All hell doth break lose
When the King rides in...

I am the coldest bone
I could love if I had a soul
I let you turn my heart to stone
Now just let me die alone

I am the coldest bone
Forever she keeps my soul
My eyes left at her throne
Undisappearing gone...
Track Name: Crying & Laughter Are For Pacifists; I Want War Because That's What My Mind Is
I am bloodless I am loveless
The only thing left that spills thru these veins is music

my thoughts are poison
as they collapse all across my mind and trickle down my flesh
I scratch my brains out of my head, can't figure out why noone wants to get close enough to mesh
Then look down at my hands holding the gray matter I had dug in

*LLLLLLL (barely laugh, fun style, choppy)

ill make a big mistake if you want me to
please sir, please sir, teach me how to behave

you've never seen a beast like me before (3x)

*CCC (huh, sniffling)

i'm not clingy
sniffs line
I don't need anybody

*LLLLLL (mad maniacal)

Now the only way I know how to feel things is all the way
Down to where my heart sinks in core and explodes
Scares weak, bt that's me so cold shold
Let's go, to the new view of unknown
No fear, dear child you gotta take that leap if you want to see if you have wings
And If not, well then for the dead n dumb we sing

*CCC (slow hard cries)
*LLL (hahahaha fast laughs happy) (sidebursting)stop it stop it
*CC (Screaming)

******
10
I'm music's Nikola Tesla, I may die bankrupt and insane, but what I create is still the greatest

This is a love letter to my kidnapper designed to self-destruct upon finishing


*LLLL (joke light laugh)
*CCC (Breathe stops)
(seal, kitty)
*mix of laughter and cries
Give Me War......
I Am War
Track Name: There Is No Hunger Like Death
We're all born free
We choose what we're a slave to be
I was the perfect breeding for the antichrist
those satanists couldn't take it out of me
Yeah these dudes can claim more success than me, but none o them dudes got so much soul like me
None o them stared straight in the devils eyes n survived like me,
none o them crawled out the abyss after they died like me
see I've felt whats here but not seen, so time to really kick into high gear
fuckboys say all they need is weed, cus all they got is fear
And I aint tryna party wit muthafuckas who dont even care
i dont wanna turn back cus im finally here
so fuck muthafuckas who've never had their innocence stolen, that tell me i've got a problem with trust
cats wanna take shortcuts to feel god, why when He put it in Us
He designed me as a vessel to speak to Him and we
For we are infinite and godly, but God is more than We
when I was all alone no where to be seen mommy
I dont want those thought snatchers keep snatchin me back to that
then momma's anxiety strikes back to that whenever she see me, to now praying n hoping i dont od
We've been thru enough hell thats why i gotta stay clean
these other dudes is fake feigns, they teaching these kids to fake feelings
no chemical can tell me what to do, i break buildings
i never did drugs to be cool, i did drugs cus noone wanted this alien on the planet so I went elsewhere
cus muthafuckers cant see your struggles and e'en if they did why the fuck should they care
So I fake flair, as if thats what we need
I don't know why the past stalks n catches up to feed
And I cared too much, so I gave too many fucks to people that have none
But don't you know Love is infinite stupid, I'm still onnnnn
I give it all away to be restored, keep lovin onnnnnn
though the sobriety got me feelin like im almost gone
I just know running had made me feelin like I was free
seer to be clear what shadow can not see
but when the devil is always on the heels, life can be exhausting
So I stopped and I stood until heart focused on my art
And I don't care about the "why" anymore, I'm just trying to do my part
And I know kids don't really care about art anymore, yet still here, here is my heart

And if i had a child i would tell her
be who you are, dont let no one else tell it

youre free to do whatever you want dear
you just have to face the consequences
Dont' fret tho, spread across populaces* (X2)

I don't wish for you to understand, we were built to bear our unique burdens, and these incessant deaths are solely for me
I'd rather you feel just like me, but I'm way too selfish to share with you my misery
This forever feeling thats ever eating, inside out death is bleeding my free
An abysmal disease with reach, I've been here before so you can give this curse to me

I don't wish for you to understand, incessant deaths that make up who I be
I'd rather you feel just like me, but I'm way too selfish to share with you my misery
Forever eating its way out of me, inside out death is bleeding me empty
An abysmal disease with reach, I've tread these waters cursing my calamity

When enslaved to this mentality, eyes cannot see past what is eating me
I'd be good if God just stays close to me, cursing forsakens at His name in vain
Believing he has forgotten me
Second guessing to figure which is the lie? I don't know.
The intuition put into me through holy spirit has always truly guided me
But these angels and demons are looking identical to me

Whether the bet is so small and fleeting as self
Or colossally expansive as life n death
In what man but God contains 'The Greatest Wealth'
Thou will know life, when thou knows 'There Is No Hunger Like Death'
So faithlessly forever we thirst
Rather than drinking eternal life to never thirst again

Where there's no me is where I be me
Is this Love fading or Death eating me...
Track Name: Harry Belafonte ft Ceschi & Soultru
So I heard solipsism is a great drug
It's a lot like loneliness was a lame excuse for a feeling, except far more egotistical
I've now rolled my eyes so many times they've consistently concaved catacombs in the back of my skull
until they fell through the cracks
And after an entire eternal afterlife
of Syndrome of inappropriate antidiuretic hormone secretion
I can never see my shitty life again
I've lived most of reality on the other side my friend
Well, what's more dangerous than a man with nothin to lose?
(A Man with nothin to win!!!)
Well, what's more dangerous than a man with nothin to lose?
(A Man with nothin to win!!!)

“Where resides the rebel heart?”

Ceschi:
Shouts to the goddamn martyrs, who bled for a future
Believed impossible dreams, didn't just sit there stupid
As troops on tv shot up the youth they claim to be freeing
What a feeble feeling to be beaten to the point we payed for just breathing
One day they'll charge us for sunlight
They'll tell us we're dumb to fight
Say it's the way that it is
While the planet crumbles to bits
I'm livin' this life, when it spits me into the under
Stoppin louder than thunder, until the kingdom is plundered

“Where resides the rebel heart?”

Give it to you straight
Sometimes say things you don't wanna hear; always outta love cus I care
Neva sugarcoat outta fear
Toxicity craves more toxicity, instead of Love
So run to that in a world where traps are disguised as love
May be a slave trading other slaves
Me and these entertainers be not the same
I'm an artist, they're a business
You're my inspiration
You're their capital
Free minds and spread Love for the human family integration
Fuck a capitalist
I want to behead the king

“Where resides the rebel heart?”

Soultru:
In your mind, in your heart, you just gone pretend.

That I wasnt a little more privileged then my neighbor from the hood who sold.

Since I was just a bit more articulate Left to find something that I felt was different only to realize

Cops teacher people humans all of us lie

Everybodies has a breaking point to survive, treachery or loyalty only differences is on the inside.


“Where resides the rebel heart?”

The reach of the ku klux klan is always there, white America only realizes when it touches part of their existence
Saw hope in the equality of humankind, we sold ourselves out when we give up on that
Without knowing there is no sacrifice too great to retrieve was was lost,
We are slaves to the trinkets of capitalism, and become players in that game of our own demise

It's time to rise, Oh rebel heart

At the pipelines “Our Native brothers stopped the engine, a call to Us to be reminded that the engine could be stopped
Be adventurous for the heart must
Find a greater place for rebellion
Once the opposition sees We
Are ready to die for what we believe in
At the point of no return, nothing can bring the revolution down
Stand up for what we believe, there's no stopping Us now
Take it straight to the throne, n behead the crown
No slowin down, bring it right to they face like BLOW
Track Name: Milk Carton Kids
We got those dead shiny eyes n we're past the brink
Reacting with miles of smiles 'fore we can even think
Happy go lucky hug hug kiss kiss hug hug kiss kiss wink
hug kissy kissy huggiessss hug hug wink wink winky kiss
---Sorry strays, dumpster babies,
molested, kidnapped, (&) runaways
We'll never fit inside your perfectly defined box of how universe is designed
So don't waste your time, with what mind can't confine
Push us away, hide us from your fancy fleek gold glitter perfect life
It may not be pretty, but at least it's real life
Don't look like that at us, sweep us up in the trash
We don't need any class, to still exist
Outside your books of history, we persist
You hug us like we're a fragile petal
You laugh how we're always a bit dishevel
But what can't be solved with hugs and laughter


You counted us good for dead
but we made it out instead
we them milk carton kids
we them milk carton kids
x2
Don't know what's wrong wit our head
You'd wish us better off dead
we them milk carton kids
we them milk carton kids


nah we won't be who you want us to be
just simply be who we be
And that's all we oughta Be

Caught in this endless motion
The Tides, they pull me, they push me
Then One ripple decides to stop
And with it the entire ocean must submit to its change
One small ripple stands silent against time
And thus, we are all intertwined
About the crux, where One shines
And illuminates in all directions outward
Until every shadow is choked in into the division of itself
And all that remains is Light
For this One day, One by One the tiny little ripples fight
---Criticize criticize, anxious from all the judging eyes
Heard it all, seen it all, of course you've lived our exact life
Precious lies precious lies, feigning smiles for your piece of mind
We know your trust too well, our throats still linger in your knife
So you goddamn right, we hate this wicked world, we've earnt the right!
Misunderstood that our plight is misunderstanding, it's our own private fight
Don't want to cheer up, want to feel this unknown that I'm feelin deep how
Right now, Want to get fucked up in the street n fall down

You counted us good for dead
but we made it out instead
we them milk carton kids
we them milk carton kids
x2
Don't know what's wrong wit our head
You'd wish us better off dead
we them milk carton kids
we them milk carton kids
Track Name: Gangsta Ass Mama
Oh Goddess Lady/ Oh Pretty Mommy

Out the mud mama, together trudged thru the worst
Workin countless jobs, but neva tire you burst
Wit' pride in the struggle, n always your child put first
You so gangsta mama, I had to put you first on this verse

Rules of a Man's world, speak when spoken, n keep ya head down
Ain't havin none o that, go' head mama wear that crown
You stand wit' Earth on shoulders, as the world falls down
What tears down builds the real, mama wear that crown

Ah, letta lose all ya steam, gangsta ass mama
Child lives thru your dream, gangsta ass mama
Ain't need support' it seems, gangsta ass mama
It's gucci got yo' own cream, gangsta ass mama

Shake dat cash cus you earned it, ey ey ey ey
Shake dat cash cus you deserve it, ey ey ey ey
Shake dat cash cus you earned it, ey ey ey ey
Shake it, shake it, shake it

Who's this clown thinkin he can tear ya down
Window shatters now you're squabbin ri' in front o da house
Yous a stand-up woman, yeah talk o da town
Oh divine feminine, let it roar it's time you're announced!

Ain't fo' no stepford wives, you a gangsta ass mama
You get it off yo' own hype,yous a gangsta ass mama
Ain't fo' da weak o heart, this for dem gangsta ass mamas
Oh you the Queen o Hearts, this for you gangsta ass mamas

Now floss it to the left, all you gangsta ass mamas
Now boogie to the right, all you gangsta ass mamas
Co'mon n do ya dance, all you gangsta ass mamas
Yeah you know you always shine, you a gangsta ass mama

Raised dem bad ass kids all on yo' own
Fought tooth n nail, yeah mama you earnt that throne
Wolverine bones, each slash chips thru stone
When man loses way, always your heart is his home

Ah, letta lose all ya steam, gangsta ass mama
Child lives thru your dream, gangsta ass mama
Ain't need support' it seems, gangsta ass mama
It's gucci got yo' own cream, gangsta ass mama

Shake dat cash cus you earned it, ey ey ey ey
Shake dat cash cus you deserve it, ey ey ey ey
Shake dat cash cus you earned it, ey ey ey ey
Shake it, shake it, shake it

Ain't fo' no stepford wives, you a gangsta ass mama
You get it off yo' own hype,yous a gangsta ass mama
Ain't fo' da weak o heart, this for dem gangsta ass mamas
Oh you the Queen o Hearts, this for you gangsta ass mamas

Now floss it to the left, all you gangsta ass mamas
Now boogie to the right, all you gangsta ass mamas
Co'mon n do ya dance, all you gangsta ass mamas
Yeah you know you always shine, you a gangsta ass mama

Gangsta ass, gangsta ass, gangsta ass mama

Goddess Lady/ Pretty Mommy

Gangsta ass, gangsta ass, gangsta ass mama
Track Name: Brighter Days ft Step Back J & Moody Black
Duals:
I am not a poet
I am poetry
Take a good look at me - God
A beautiful devilish glimpse of your reflection
One foot in the sand
How art thou carry me?
Yo My heart was too hidden to ever take a stand
Training wheels off now come n walk with we
Dark day day dark day dark dark day
why won't the sun just go away? Hey
trip, stumble, mumble curse against ordained
Posturing the feeble difference of what I chose n what I feigned
Man, This world will have you feeling bad just for feeling
And it can always be worse so I'm thankful that I'm human

cast the shadows behind, now lookin forward to those brighter days
Say none survive this storm? Well, heart n faith go a long way
Let not your sight blind, gather each n every stray
for every precious gray, makes the Sun a brighter day



Step Back J:
Too many days praying that the rain would go away
Or the sun that shines the only way for brighter days 
Sometimes feeling washed up like a castaway
But I found that's if I only don't look past today
Whatever weather shit will always get better
Gotta sever anything that holds you back in endeavors 
Gotta put shit on your self gotta pull your own levers
So when the world gets cold man you have your sweater
So when the world says to quit I will always say never
I will Clench my fists together then attack like a predator
Flow out of this world let you fall like a meteor
Treat it all like a battle know it never gets easier
I won't put shit on my wealth I will put shit on my health
I won't put shit on my friends I will put shit on my self
I been fighting battles without know my opponent 
Found it was myself it takes man to know your broken

cast the shadows behind, now lookin forward to those brighter days
Say none survive this storm? Well, heart n faith go a long way
Let not your sight blind, gather each n every stray
for every precious gray, makes the Sun a brighter day

Moody Black:
cold winter nights, I need a straight jacket; block stay hot, i'm praying safe passage
on the grind...in that Toyato cryin'
but I walk with my wings out...I 'pose to be flyin'
affirmations in my mind every time I throw them covers off
before my feet touch the ground; ask the gods to hold me down
keep my head up...step like a titan
ain't talkin' Marriota...more like Poseidon 
and I strive like my drive is attached to a Maybach
from South Carolina, and I'm proud just to say that
yea...and I'm showin' love to everybody
cause what I been through...dark days were very cloudy
them dark times,...you gotta come up off of it
the sun make ya blind? let LOVE be ya walkin' stick...
and guide you, GPS you to better days
so, when you reach the sun, just embrace the rays


Duals:
These are affirmations of victory
Keep the hope alive Family
We will rise to Brighter Days
We are victorious
Becuase Love has already won
So grow to who you already are
Be the Light you were born to be
Brighter Days y'all, One
Track Name: Christ vs Santa Muerte
I challenge you this:
A great man can not fall but by his own doing
If thou doth fall by others' hands,
you lose sole accountability And thus are not great
I'm not a great man yet, but I shrug the cold off like One
And I've never been a slave to anything I didn't allow myself a slave to be
Take my body to spite my mind; my soul is free
Kidnap me, rape me, murder me,
bring me back to kill me again and possess me with demons
Unbreakable Everly Shattering Baby
between the the tiniest crevices unseen
between the abyss' foreverless does piece
through to a greater One

“A child is born with no state of mind
Blind to the ways of mankind”

***Don't push me, cus the EST I'm receiving may transfer shock you

***The always ambivalent AI program is still trying to figure whether real or hyperreal while semiotically sending these so-called real motherfuckers back to Plato's cave to distinguish between light and false light.

Dear chaser of innocence,

Of what use is freedom of speech to those who fear to offend?

Dear chaser of innocence,

Yeah I'm bout that peace n love, but not on no hippie shit. Revolution Now, burn this bitch to the ground. Thank God Trump won the presidency, now even the liberal snowflakes see we need to organize and take to the streets. Too tongue-in-cheek? Well, lick my ass n close your beak. Seek n destroy for the mere sake of my sardonic sense of humour.

Damn thy art with a message
was a false prophet's message
Sentenced my sentences to life without recognizance
Then left us with petty quotes like
'A picture's worth a thousand words'
But I'm out your frame, out of space, out of the abyss, out of a multi-multi-reverse-non-universe fractaling out an infinite number of light years in a future that will never exist

Too distracted by the cost to focus on the value...As if you won't be gone before you know...
So blessed these days we call drone strikes peace
While everyone kills each other over an illusion called safety
I raise my umbrella as I pray God's flood will never cease
Blowin levity at the burdens Atlas found too hefty
Love is a legacy
And trust is a fallacy
dont look back
but never forget


(1:30)In a world where evil reigns supreme, any amount of Love is a miracle.
Calling cold casm to mommy's lil caustic baby
Signed sincerily to your hostility,
Well serendipity see step so serendipitous mist may spread
Down to a sea bed...
I'm not really nice, they just draw me that way
Dear child, whenever you are
If see Peace coming at you, that means a war is approaching not far behind you
So no matta how many times knocked back n down, keep a forward steer
And remember that any direction is onward and upward dear
That is, as long as there is a door there
And if not, create one, creator is there inside heart n brain
Art damn these chains!
I'm a sociopathic victim of spreading LovingKindness
Caught somewhere between God, Santa Muerte, nature, and my created consciousness
death is but an earnt bliss
so why's everyone so focused on the abyss
blinded by all you see, it's not what's in the abyss
the truth is in the crevices
Beyond that calling you've been faking
Getting my Johnny Cash on, walking the line with no fear of falling
Uh, that's not a line your flirting with kid, it's a razor blade

uh thank you
and a fuck you very much
a pleasurable greeting
I'm the human tornado

I take a shower when I'm happy
I take a shower when I'm sad
I take a shower when I'm angry
I take a shower when I'm confused
I'm the sole one responsible for the whole world's drought
But can you blame me, when water is the medium of God's equilibrium

I know I'm still gonna be judged, by people who think their righteousness comes from themselves
Oh well, I know we all deserve hell, but we're only saved by His mercy and grace
“I've came to save the righteous, and who among you are righteous”
We weren't given the Earth we wish for, but the Earth we deserve
We don't deserve anything, there's no such thing as curse, each breath is gift
From the birth to the death each breath is a valued blessing
They'll tell you to quit playing the victim while they're raping you
They've never seen or felt your path, but will haste to prove how they're better than you
Oh how to hate the sin and love the sinner
There is no human kinship without compassion
There is no understanding without empathy
If you say you wouldn't it's only because you haven't been pushed that far to have to
Yes my faire lady, life ain't fair, thank God for that
I've met a many a saints, and none of them have ever had their name on a billboard
except for Martin Scorsese

...Despite no one seeing each other's universe the same
...And we are more alike than we are the same
…..........Let me make it abundantly clear, I'm not searching for a soulmate, I'm searching for an anarchist
We need more makin change with our friends and less policing each other

A ride to die angel who can burn death to herself with a french kiss
There is a love letter self to set to (explode on the ending of the listenin)
smackin sean combs at his christenin
No gods, no idols
No faith in a government nor a president
Put faith in One another
We will always overcome, because Love has already won



And only God's children will be laughing at armageddon

God please have sympathy for the boy whom hast too much sympathy for the devil

Misery hates my company,
misery hates who I've changed to be
I'm on my knees like Miss take me
back baby, why won't you love me

All the fellow enemies in that cramped overpopulated Nicaraguan jail cell wondering how this gringo got mixed up with the local gangs, but I was too in love with detoxing on that cold moist hard floor to explain. Do you know what I mean?

I guess I'll never be good at maths
I sear to un-father
me, I'm 3/3 Christ
And 2/3 Santa Muerte
In addition to my 1/3 Light
1/3 False Light
Grab any side of me you wish and look into your precise reflection
That inhuman courage to see how you're barely human
Thank God for that, dear transcending hydrogen molecule
This is the part of the song where Jesus Christ screams and no one gives a fuck
did you hear it?
In between the hypocrites swearing sinless that they carry not the blood of their fathers'

Where do you run when the drugs don't work no more
Whom do you love when the touch can't feel anymore
When do you love if your soul don't exist no more
What do you have left to say when the prayers aren't answered anymore
Why do you live when thy death can't die no more

And only God's children will be laughing at armageddon

God please have sympathy for the boy whom hast too much sympathy for the devil

Muerte hates my company,
Muerte hates who I've changed to be
I'm on my knees like Miss leave me
back baby, why won't you unwed me

Humans are like poems
And well, If I lose this poem I lose this poem...